Carrying Grief

In May, there was a news story about a grieving chimpanzee who carried her dead baby around for months at a zoo in Spain. This is not uncommon with chimpanzees. Some mothers have been known to continue to carry and even groom their deceased children for as much as 3 months. I decided to not post a picture of what that looks like, because I did not want to trigger any negative emotions. You can look it up for yourself, though. Chimpanzees are believed to share 98% of their genes with humans and experience emotions like grief.

I am in the process of writing an eBook and course, and so I have been reliving many of the emotions that I have dealt with over the years. Nothing affected me more negatively than grief. I still have moments that overwhelm me. I was listening to a song my only first cousin (who also lost a child a few months after I did) posted this morning, and I was shocked by how overwhelmed I got with the pain of his loss and mine. It hit me so aggressively that I had to abandon the song and start listening to something else. That pain still comes in crashing waves, albeit much less frequently than two years ago.

I haven't really said anything about it, but my teenage son and his girlfriend are having a baby this summer. He was my firstborn son and is still very special to my heart. Honestly, I wish they hadn't gotten pregnant at their age (17). I tried as hard as I could to prevent it, but...you know. Ha! I am so excited to be a granddad for the first time. However, I now realize that I am actually grieving the end of my baby boy's very difficult childhood. Sound weird? It's amazing what and how we grieve.

The Lord has shown me that many of you are actually grieving, too. Maybe it's a lost loved one, marriage, career, dream, or some other loss. Grief is real. Grief is awful. I am so sorry that you have been affected by it. Jesus was affected by it, too. In fact, scripture tells us that He actually bore your grief. He loves you so much. You are not alone.

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I Am An Evangelist and Missionary to The American Church

I never knew that I would be a missionary and evangelist to the American Church, but here I am. As people encounter the Love of God, there is so much healing and freedom (yes, deliverance!) that comes. "Religion" is what we commonly refer to as the lifeless, angry, controlling, rule keeping, exclusionary, and judgmental preaching you can hear any day and any time at a church near you.

I need you to know that there is life after religion. There is hope beyond what you have heard. There is more Light than you have seen. There is joy for depression and peace for anxiety. Preachers have been watering down the Love and Grace of God for too long. We have been compromising on the Truth of The Finished Work, and we have been pushing people to work harder for stuff that has already been paid for and provided by The Lamb of God that takes away the sin of the world!

I know that many of you have been beaten up by angry Christianity and left-for-dead by pastors and leaders that subscribe to such preaching and controlling ways. I have been beaten up and left-for-dead myself, so I know where you are living in this moment. I am on a search-and-rescue mission for those left in the ditches! My friends and family, you are about to encounter the Goodness of the Real and Almighty God. You will never be the same!

Celebration and Grieving

This past weekend was my parents' 50th Anniversary, my 49th birthday, and it would have been my daughter's 28th birthday. 

Jeremy Lesley's Swellcast

Under These Roofs

 

Under these roofs, the Greatest Love Story in the world ("For God So Loved the World...") and the truth about The Finished Work of The Cross should be constantly made known to all who come near. God's true heart for a hurting world should be fully demonstrated. Brokenness should be loved. Outcasts should be celebrated. The hungry should be fed. Children, women, and men should be safe from predators and controlling personalities. Leadership should be approachable, trustworthy, and humble servants that wash the dirty feet of their cities. Worship should be passionate and transparent. Prayer should be the main order of business. This place should be the headquarters for a true Jesus & Book of Acts style community transformation. A major shift is happening, if you haven't noticed. The Sons and Daughters of God are about to manifest.

God is Perfect Love

 

God is Perfect Love. We are beginning to understand that you won’t know that people have been with God based on their giftings and anointings. Lots of people that are not close to God preach, prophesy, heal, etc. You won’t know people have been with God based on holiness, because anyone can follow a moral or religious code. Many church folks do that without God! You will know that people are spending time in the Face of Father, Son, and Holy Spirit if they live, speak, and demonstrate what God is: LOVE! (See John 15:35)

You Are Worthy of Love

Click this link to hear a very short message about Love:

You Are Worthy of Love (swellcast.com)

Prince Harry

 Prince Harry has become a United States Resident. He has married and had children with an American celebrity instead of an heiress to some royal estate. He endeavors to distance himself from the lifestyle, benefits, and work of his family's royalty. Yet, he will always be royalty and an heir to the throne. He may disavow it, but it will not change the fact that his DNA says he is a Prince.

You may roll around with the pigs and lie down in strange places. Your language and behavior may not yet reflect the values of your true identity. Your money may look funny. Your credit and background records may seem shot. You can do all that you can think of to distance yourself from the Trinity, the Church, religion, and whatever else. Change your name, religion, address, behavior, and anything you want. You will NEVER change the fact that you were MADE IN THE IMAGE of ALMIGHTY GOD. You are His Son. You are His Daughter. You are an heir and joint heir to the Throne of God through Yeshua! All of Creation is waiting for you to Manifest as your true identity in the earth right now!

Whether you realize it or not, Father/Son/Holy Spirit are with you wherever you are at this very moment. Angels are there, too. Also, there's a great Cloud of Witnesses surrounding you, too, of those that have transitioned into the next dimension. People are praying for you that you will never personally know. All of Heaven is pulling for you. I'm pulling for you. Step out of darkness into His marvelous Light. Let the Father put a royal ring on your finger and robe on your back. This is where you have always belonged! Welcome Home!